Sweet Trap

I started my new job for a month now. Everything is new for me. I never been in the environment like this before though. My previous job was some kind like freelancer. I work for what I like. I like to help people to be better so I teach them. I like to organise so I do the organiser. I like to read so I can read when I want. I like to see so I go anywhere where and when I want. At that time, I had my life but my financial was down but with that problem, i'm very happy. It isn't like I happy because of no money but I was happy that I had my life in the way I want. When I ran to one point, I realised that maybe it's time to do the thing that most people do for living which is be an employee in the company. I thought that I should take my life more serious.

Now it's already a month passed by, I don't even feel that my life is becoming more serious. In the upside down, I feel like I just spend a day for doing nothing. What am I doing now? I don't even do anything to help any people to be better but only one person for one venue. Is it really more serious like I wanted? The answer is NO. My life can be more serious than this. From this place, I know that I will gain something and it does so many as well. I want to be something bigger than now. I know that it is no short-cut in real life but if there is no short-cut why don't I take the long way on the way that I would be pleasure.

I am the person who want to do so many thing in my life. I would say that I am a free spirit, I am a creative. I have my mind, I have my opinion, I have my motivation, and I have my inspiration. I am that kind of person. With the office job, it crops my mind and I don't want it to crop my mind until I forget what I really want in my life. I will not say that it is a trap for me. But if it was, it would be a good trap because it rings me a bell. Everybody should fall for this trap then you will know that it's the trap you willing to spend your life on or no.